Clara has been in our lives for 15 weeks now.
In that time we have quickly adjusted to life as a family of four. Izzy is still very happy about being a big sister – she is always hugging and kissing Clara and telling her how much she loves her. Yesterday, there was yet another amazing moment of sibling love when she she took Clara’s hand and said “I’m so happy that you are here”. And she genuinely is.
The feeling is mutual – Clara’s face lights up when Izzy is around. When Izzy goes to sit next to her on the floor she reaches out to hold onto her hand or clothes.
We worried that as Izzy was quite an easy going baby we wouldn’t be blessed with such luck the second time round. But we were wrong. If anything, Clara is even more laid back. So far, anyway! I suppose she has to be. Second babies don’t get as much one on one attention as their older sibling did. In some ways she is very like Izzy – they share some of the same features and expressions, and both love to suck their thumbs – but I’m looking forward to getting to know her and discovering her personality as she grows.
I love the little quivering smile she does while she is asleep, like she is having a really funny dream. I love the way she buries her face into my neck, and the beaming smile on her face when I go to pick her up. I will think she is asleep and look over to find her wide awake and watching my every move. She has really found her voice this past week, gurgling away happily, and joining in when I’m talking or singing to her. Her activity gym is now a firm favourite and she loves batting the toys and watching the lights flash.
Of course, there have been some hard times. Like the nights were I had no sleep at all, or the days were I felt stuck to the sofa because Clara was constantly feeding for hours. Once Clara settled into sleeping a good 7-9 hours each night it made everything else a lot easier. I may live to regret saying this, as it’s still early days, but it’s not as hard as I thought it would be.